Searching for the identity
The search for something never ends. I search for this. I search for that. I get this. I get that. I see something unexpected. I am happy. I am sad. I am confused. I think about this. I think about that. I get things done. Some things I don’t get.
I get satisfied in something. I don’t get satisfied in others. I again think. I try to find the truth. Finding the truth is not so easy. Also the craving for truth doesn’t occur often. We are unable to identify truths from that of the falsehood surrounding us. Even if identified at times it gets forgotten most of the time. I see you. I see me. I see him. I see her. I see everything. I think so.
I don’t see the entire world. I miss the inner most thing. It’s really tough to remember. On very few occasions I peel off the outer things to identify what is inside. I see truth, only truth and nothing else. There is a huge void over there. It can be felt only by experience. There is no sadness. There is no happiness. I am not there. You are not there. Nothing is there. There is only silence and nothing else.
My sadness is ditched when I am present there. My happiness becomes washed out there. It’s full of void and just nothing. It is the ultimate thing in this entire universe. The place is more valuable than the whole lot of entertainments available in this world. I can’t say it’s divine. But I think it’s pure. I see no god there. I see no man there. Yes I see souls. All of them are noble souls. No hard work can reserve a seat there. No brain drain can reserve a seat there. So how can one reach over there? No idea. Experience, yes may be experience may lead you there sometime.
Is it the real meaning of life? Is it the inner you. What is it exactly? Where is that place? Is it the place of the gods? Or is it the place you came from? Is it the place you will go finally? If there is nobody there then how will you live? Who will be with you? Amidst all these confusions, the existence of the (not so?) real-world comes to your mind again. I think it’s just normal. I start searching again. Searching for what? Started Again?
